Am I Indifferent? If it's the polar of getting pissed, I am. You can only internalize what you can't conquer, so don't keep making space for the sake of stillness. Do it for immortality. More time is amped with some malleable number of clicks keeping pace by helping settle it.
Best use of time used to be essential, obsessional now it's less vague than best, it's magic. Recalibrate, man. We plug devices to recharge thus we find where our own plug is. Better than best.
The five days before are the live demonstration of how good the end of the calendar year can be when you're not engaged in the brewed expectations. It's a marvelous thing, shizzle, bacchanal at the fluffer's hangout. .