How should I go about life? Binary says either or.
There's a trick to realize you can do both things: 1) stay logically grounded and pick up the sham of The Choice and put it in proportions or 2) get deeper into accepting we are part of something bigger. Think of what you're doing from both perspectives - that's the trick.
If using up all 9 lives adds up to living as if right now is the last life, then that explains the home hugging fetish. If not, keep digging. Castilian winds allay most fears about caring too much about connections like when the trees still line the street. Time honoring has a bottleneck right where you decide to favor 1) or 2) as an operating system. Risk-averse rules the universe when the connection comes into view.
The Belle has rung, status still so quo and FYI, nice.